Devotion

I decided that I want to start blogging again. I know I like to talk....so this is a really good outlet for me. I am feeling very introspective these days, too much time on my hands. I know with four kids, how is that possible? Pat being home so much. Simple answer. Also the MOVE. It freed up my life. I am thinking lots about Jesus and my life with him. I want this blog to be one of my journey with him. I don't want to publicly show how great of a follower I am, rather what a failure I am as a human with out Him. In reality, we are sinners, I tell my kids all the time, I am NOT perfect. I make mistakes and need Mommy time outs too. I have been following Jesus for 20 years. Wow, that is a long time. I am ashamed to say I don't know him as well as I should. I have drifted away from my first love at many points in my life and tried on my own to be the best me I could be. Along the way I always loved him, but it was sometimes out of obligation. I would do the work, allowing God to touch me where I wanted him to. I have been praying a scary prayer, that I would seek him with all my heart, and be the ME he wants me to be. It isn't easy, we so want to be comfortable, happy, content. Following Jesus without abandon can't always be these things. So will you join me on my journey? If you are here, it is because I call you friend. See me at my best, see me at my worst, but be patient God isn't done with me yet. In HIS love....Valerie